PUG's
By: Jewelyn
Ugggg!!!
I cant say that I hate them, I guess, but I sure don't love them... LOL!!! I'm a very sensitive person by nature, and dislike being "yelled" at very much, and so even-tho this is a game and we are mostly communicating via text in chat, if i perceive that I am being "yelled at" I am most unhappy. :( And as I said I'm a sensitive person, so I'm sure that in some cases if not even most cases that I think I'm being "yelled at" that perhaps it is not really so. So When I muster up enough courage to join a PUG all by my little self "Go Me!!!" *pats self on the back*. I remind myself over and over again "this is just a game, you do this for fun, it does not matter if people get mad at you." and then I smile at myself. I know this all sounds so silly. I really love dungeons ALOT, and I didn't use to be so afraid to go in them, by myself. But I had a few bad runs on my cleric w a few jerks *cries* and it really spoiled it for me. I'm so proud of myself cuz today is one of those days that I got the courage to go in alone. And I had a pretty good run too. YAY!!! I started out w a few technical difficulties w my computer got those sorted out, and then continued on enjoying myself not too stressed about the silly start. It was my first time in Caduceus Rise Expert so I had no idea what to expect, but since I was only playing support I was not to concerned. I died several times. And was asked to do more dps part way through. They were very polite in how they asked me. I appreciate this. I am very insecure when asked to do something different I always feel as if the other members are thinking I am the weak link and don't want me in the group lol, and I was the weak link in the run today it was obvious i didn't know what was going on lol *sigh*. Again all I can say is YAY for nice PUG's. At the end of our run I thanked them for their patience w me and said I'd had fun w a smiley face. No one said anything to me...so my sensitive brain goes off on a tangent wondering if they all were thinking "I'm so glad to b done with that run, she was an awful bard.". And then I have to say again "Its just a game and you play to have fun." So I try to really focus on that and not my insecurities about what THEY all thought of me.